The field.

Let me let you In on something. Just to give you an idea of what goes down.

An idea of how I go about it, about how I work….

Before class starts I work with students one on one. 

We do the pre-work. The aim of this pre-work is to loosen up the existing system.

The current functioning system. 

9 out of 10 times the system will be functioning out of a survival strategy and coping mechanism. This is after all why people find me in the first place. 

After a few sessions when I feel that the system is ready for a deeper reset I invite the student into class. A group can move mountains in a way that one on one work can not. 

And a big part of this is a group field. 

Energetically we all carry fields, related to our different bodies. 

The emotional, spiritual, physical, etheric, astral, mental, empty bodies. Surrounding our manifestation as a person.

Every teaching will tell you a different story around this. 

I work with these seven different bodies. 

Your field is related to your family, ancestral, and karmic fields. And all of these are connected to even bigger fields. 

Every teaching will tell you a different story around this. 

I work with these three fields. 

These fields have realms, just like different plants have realms, just like different art forms have realms. Worlds beyond our mental body. 

This is a whole other story, but for my point it matters to mention this. 

The field is forming before the class starts. 

This is usually takes a few weeks.

While this field is forming I create a constellation for the students, usually with stones or crystals. I place this at my altar and every day I light a candle to bring in light and pray for guidance. I place values that I feel support the group. 

I do this everyday for at least 3 weeks before the class actually starts. 

To be clear. 

The students have a field. 

The team has a field. 

And I have a field. 

I am carrying all of these fields. I always have my sister/colleague/mentor on stand by just in case I miss something or if the field  turns out to be a bit heavy at times. I have been fortunate to work with this amazing person for ten years now, and there is no one I trust more in this work than her. She thought me a lot and helps me every time. She is my rock and my family. But she doesn’t really like attention so I will keep her identity private. ( for now )

Before class starts I work in this field by connecting to the different students in the field. I  work with vortex energy, meditation, prayer and movement. My aim is to now  loosen up this collective field as much as I can before the class starts in person.

Many things can come up in this second step of the work. 

The field can bring  up many different emotions, sensations and realities.

My job is to calm it, help it flow, and channel all my energy to bring out the shit  that needs to be transformed. 

All these fields come together when the class starts. They are the same yet different, together yet  separate, they are intertwined and all the same being yet a complete fest of lose energies. It is truly a thing of magic.

Then we step into the field on the first day of class. The students, all their ancestors and guiding spirits and an entity here and there to spice it up. 

I have 10 students for every class, no more and no less. 

I came up with this number out of a feeling, I want to be as sure as I can be that I can carry the field and deliver a quality and care that I feel is important to the work. 

And then we go. 

Then  I can see in the physical realm how it manifests.

Sometimes it will manifest in heaviness, grief, the inability to move, fear or impatience.

Either way we are moving through whatever is coming up.

During  class we bring in an altar that helps us carry the field, I work with despacho, offering flowers and food, and I make a piece of art for every class where I channel the theme of the group in to help me carry it. 

I bring in all the elements. The water, air, fire and earth, all that can help the group move through their issues. 

And then we get to work. I start to communicate with all the different bodies and different realms via my work. The work is a lot of things, it can look like a lot of things. Like dancing, talking, moving, crying, relaxing, laughter, discussions, music, praying, hugging and whatever else we might need. Mostly the work is me feeling and sensing what is needed for every individual and the collective. This is a sense, my gift, to be able to hear clearly and keep my own ego out of it, to be in full service of what is coming up and how to move it. I get a lot of help from the spirits that guide me. I connect to jesus christ energy, amma, kali, and many more angels and teachers that i know. I connect to the divine and let it move through me as much as I can. 

And as we are working through our stuff I explain as much as I can about the topic of the class. The last few classes were about the karmic imprint. So I will walk the students through these concepts and step by step invite them to release as much attachment as they can.

Attachments to stories to wounds to people to different lives. Wherever attachment is creating a disturbance in life energy flow i will try to disrupt it as much as I can to restore and align the essence of the student. 

At times I will run into a student that carries an entity either out of a clusterfuck of energy out of the ancestral line or just straight into the karmic imprint. 

Whatever shows itself first is what I will focus on. 

To be able to move it I use the group field. 

I tap into the love we have for each other, the support and the connection that we share. 

This energy is simply necessary at times to move these big blocks. 

And at times I have to pull it out of the depths of my soul. To create this needed disruption to be able to move it. 

The last day of the class I cut the field loose and put everyone back in their own system.

They actually do this themselves during our closing ceremony. 

And then the integration begins. 

In my experience it will take about a full week for the students in their system to be able to ground in their lives again. 

And another full week before their bodies are grounded.

After these two weeks have passed I will do a closing ritual for the field.

And then the mind will step back in and challenge all that they have learned, so they need to start practicing with actual actions, rituals and choices. Because their old timeline is gone, their reality has shifted and now they need to adjust to the new layer of the spirit. The work is never done, so they need to keep practicing.

Four weeks after the class it will be clear which students go where.

Some decide to keep going and sign up for more things to do that I offer. 

Others I keep seeing one on one. 

And others have all they need and decide to move in a different direction.

There is no wrong choice here. All is perfectly divine. 

The team that I work with will have their own closing and check out rituals.

And I give an offer, a thank you, a prayer to all the energies that helped me in my own special (private) way.

Why am I telling you all this?

Because I feel it's important to let you in on this work that I do. 

Now when I was young I didn't know what I was doing, and worked subconsciously. 

But I educated myself. I went into learning and found teachers that I trust and love that helped me understand my gifts better.

Because since I didn't know what I was doing years ago, but was still working with these very powerful energies I would drain and harm myself. I would give my all but after class found myself being destroyed and took me weeks sometimes months to recover from it. 

I have a clear sight and I am very much attuned with my team of guidance and spirits. 

But that didn't mean that I knew how to work with them without harming myself. 

I work with people, with people in their lives and this is for me the most important thing.

To handle with respect and care. I do not take any of this for granted. And I don't take any of this lightly. I am deeply committed and humbled every time a person decides to choose me to walk with them. It is such intimate and vulnerable work, that I am deeply grateful to be a part of. 

I give my students everything I got, and all I ask in return is that they do the same. 

Because together we can move mountains, and truly heal ourselves and each other. 

I am sharing all of this to let you know that this work is profound and sacred, and when in the wrong hands, can do more harm then you might realise.

I am also sharing this with you because it is time that I step more into my light and away from any shame that I have surrounding my work.

Because I am sure you can imagine that when I meet new people and they ask me what I do for work, I often just tell them I am a therapist. Its been only since this year I a starting to come out as something entirely different.

I felt shame because of the judgement of people that didn’t understand, or I felt the need to over explain myself that I am not some spiritual leader that dances naked in the forrest, or some former addict turned yogi.

I am sharing this with you because I know that there are people out there that are looking for me, and I need to be visible for them. And I know that the times that we are living in are challenging to say the least.

I am sharing because I know that coming years will not be easier, we are heading towards the boiling point of our collective awakening, and I need you to know that I am here to help.

So, my new year's resolution is to keep going and to keep doing the work that i do. 

I don't ask for a lot of money for what I do, but I feel I am fair. 

I never expect to get rich from my work and if I did I would welcome it.

I don't do this work because I dreamed of being a medicine woman, and i dont do it because I like to be the centre of the conversation. 

I do this work because I was born to do it, I was made to do it. 

I am not some social media influencer, I am not a shady shaman that takes money from people and offers false promises of healing. I don't claim to know the absolute truth and I never feel I am better than someone else. Well maybe sometimes, I still have some ego left after all.

What ever the case might be, I want you to know who I am and that I am here.