Blind spots

These last two months have been filled with the most deep and profound work I ever did. 

I am completely humbled to be a part of it. The students are a dream and my team is delicious. 

I feel as if I am working on the greatest piece of art of my life. It is consuming my entire space. My time, my mind, my body. And I wouldn't want it any other way. 

We are now in the process of moving deeper through the layers of blind spots/ ego positions. And it can feel as if we are experiencing a sense of eternity. 

There doesn't seem to be a limit to peeling the layers of self, perhaps until we reach a state of enlightenment or budhastate. In that case we could argue that the purpose of life is awakening. To be in the here and now. 

However in the meantime we are all still puzzling back the pieces of self by going into a deeper self exploration about how we are showing up in life. 

If this is the case, then we need to put a sequence over this as well. 

The first step of awakening would be to step into this lifetime, this life now. 

In the fullest way we can do that, now. 

Then we unpack, we go backwards so we can move forwards again. 

This is the whole process of waking up to who I am now. 

But this raises up many emotions and questions and discussions with God. 

And today after many talks with my team, my students and my son, I am landing in yet another layer of this discussion.

It looks like the anger to God is the trap to prevent us from evolving. 

God is after all a man made concept, the source however is not. 

It's like screaming to the crashing waves of an angry ocean, and telling it to stop. 

And still as we go through all of these layers, we can say; it's only human to want to place blame for the injustice we feel. But we can also state that that attitude would not hit the point. 

Because as I was moving through the layers of this concept I found myself coming into an existential state. An angry and indifferent state. The world is such a mess, there is no such thing as free will, God is cruel, what will it take for us as an humanity to wake up?

But I've always had this strong feeling that attaching to this state  kept me in a space that had a ceiling, and since the anger is also limitless, all roads ended up being dead ends. 

But what if we take the law of duality, and I accept that there has to be everything of both in order to come to a human life. The duality is where we can play out the most of our karma after all. And then taking it to the law of evolution, which clearly states that the only necessary component for evolution is variables. 

And if I then look at our genetic code, I see that it is the difference in chromosomes that eventually make up our structures to become human. 

It shows up in seasons, it shows up in how we create art, how we create humans, how we destroy and rebuild. 

Our entire universe is a constant violent battle of creation. The Abruption of life. 

So this would mean that once I break through the ceiling of anger and wanting to understand the ‘why’, I can start sinking deeper into my consciousness and allow evolution to occur. 

All I have to do is keep unravelling and keep detangling who I think I am, and what I think this world is all about. Up until I find myself for most of the time in the here and now where I accept the reality to come to me as I AM in that moment. 

To connect to a source that my human mind will never understand, but my soul can feel through the expression of emotions, and then anchoring it in all in the choices that I make. 

To manifest a higher frequency of being in this world, until all of me is aligned to move into the next one. What if there is no such thing as a ceiling? No end game. 

When we have mastered the art of discovering as many blind spots as possible out of state of grace and mercy, and move out of the ‘I’ living and move into a more collective living, we can start to live out of our essence. Back to our nature. 

And yes I understand that this sounds like a lot of work, and maybe it is.

But honestly, is there really any other way? 

Aren't we in fact the biggest piece of art we will ever work on? And isnt that something worth sharing with others?